Back To Reality

The holidays are over and it's back to normal. Of course, normal is such a relative term, isn't it? Didn't do much this weekend. Was supposed to go see Vanilla yesterday but he wasn't feeling well. We rescheduled for today but he's still sick. We're looking at Wednesday now for a rain check. Emails with Mr. No Show throughout the weekend and today. He told me he needed a cheerleader for his basketball game tonight. I told him he had to tell me where. He never responded, of course. Spoke to Bagley Saturday night on the phone. He doesn't give very good phone. Today he sent me a sappy email hoping things were ok since we didn't talk yesterday. Law called tonight but I didn't answer. Emails with Dr. Nice guy. He's on the East Coast but will be doing his residency here in the fall. He's coming to visit the hospital in three weeks. We plan to meet for dinner while he's here.

Love Burn

like embers that float from a fire
against a midnight black
they dance for awhile
then scorch my heart
leaving tiny battlescars
for me to heal
they fall back to earth, cold ash,
in another location, into anothers life
i watch them leave, helplessly
some i mourn
some i blow to rush their departure
some have been lit but a moment
some a slow heat that lasted many moons
some i've tried to catch and save
but always they are gone, eventually
no heat, no light, out of my sight
not necessarily out of my mind
this fire never quite dies
something, somewhere, somehow
always keeps it burning,
even when i wish it would be extinguished
i cannot help but to be drawn to it,
mesmerized by a glimpse of it's power,
wanting to be warmed by it for eternity
rather than hurt when i get too close.