Suspicious Minds

Last night was the third night in a row I couldn't get a hold of Q after work. With normal guys this would be no big whoop but with Q, who is usually up my ass 24/7, it seems very weird. It makes me wonder what the hell is going on. I text him when I get home from work, just like I told him I would. He doesn't respond. Two hours later I send him a text and ask if he's mad at me or something. No response. I try calling him at 8:30 and it goes to voicemail. I'm getting really pissed off. My phone rings that I have a text. "Finally!", I think to myself. I grab my phone but it's not Q. It's MNS. He apologizes again for not making it this morning. He says he is on his way to basketball and that he should be done by 10:30 or so. I tell him he can call when he's done but I will probably be asleep. I get a text from Q right before I go to bed that says he's sorry it took him so long to reply but he's been talking to his mom and she's getting worse so he's talking to his brother. I wonder, if I really am the love of his life like he claims I am, why wouldn't he talk to me about his mom? He won't even tell me what's wrong with her. All I know is that she's sick and she's in Mississippi and they are not very close. I try calling him but he doesn't answer. WTF, bobaloo?!?! I text him back and say that it's weird I haven't been able to get ahold of him and if he needs to talk, I'm here. Nothing.

At 5:17 this morning my phone beeps at me again. I glance at the clock. Ooooh, is MNS on his way over? Wait, that was the last two days that was supposed to happen, not today. I look and it's Q. It just says "hey". Really? That's all you got for me? And what the hell are you doing up so early? Just coming home from your other girlfriends? Guilt and paranoia are getting the best of me this week, I guess. I text back "hey". How does he like it? We exchange like two texts and then he stops. I ask him if he doesn't want to talk to me anymore or what. I get a message in 2.1 seconds but it's not him. It's MSN asking how my morning is going. Q takes over an hour to text me back and say that he does want to talk to me. I say then he needs to tell me what the hell is going on and if he's still coming tomorrow. Another hour later he says "yeah baby". Yeah baby, what? You're coming? You're ok? You've met someone else? Yeah baby, what? He says nothing is going on. I respond and get nothing back for the last hour. This from the guy that is usually so fast on a response that I can't keep up? Don't tell me something isn't going on. My gut feeling is off the charts right now that something is very awry. Maybe he has a Mrs. No Show there? Maybe it's the ex? Maybe a co-worker? Maybe he's just done with me? Regardless, just let me know. I hate nothing more in the entire world than being shut out. Well, that and snockers and rednecks.

MNS is texting this morning, being his usual flirty and dirty self. I respond because Q is pissing me off and I need attention right now. And well, that's just who I am and what I do.

THURSDAY AFTERNOON
MNS texts me over lunch and we decide both of our lunches would be more fun if we were naked together. Alas, it's not going to happen but at least we agree.

Finally get some responses from Q. He says he doesn't want to stress me out with the stuff about his mom. I tell him, as his girlfriend, it's my job and it won't stress me out but maybe I can help him feel better. Once I tell him I'm here for him and he can talk to me, he is instantly better and back to his old, attentive and loving self. Why do men always think they have to carry their burdens and stress alone? Don't they know by now that bottling it up does nobody any flippin' good? Dang. Anyway, I feel much better about this now and am again excited for him to come tomorrow night. It's been two weeks since I've seen him and I'm jonesing. I need to get some in a major way and I know Q will deliver and work to keep a permanent smile on my face the entire weekend. He is a giver, that's for sure.

Yommey and I decided we might have to go out tonight and partake in consumption of some adult beverages. It's been a long time. I'm so looking forward to it. After one helluva week for both of us, we could definitely use it! Hooray for night out with my Yommey!! Perhaps I'll have an interesting story or two for tomorrow. One can never tell...