So Close I Can Almost Taste It...

SUNDAY
I talk to Tre and Marine a few times. I'm too tired to really engage in valid conversation so they can take it or leave it. Fucking rebound shows up at our apartment at 2:30 in the morning, banging on the door, wondering why I keep hanging up on him. Huh? I look at his phone and see that he has juxtaposed the first three digits of my phone number and has been terrorizing someone else that doesn't want to talk to him. I ream his ass for showing up at our door at that hour and waking us up. He's drunk and clearly can't drive. I let him stay. As soon as I do I regret this because the guy snores like a freakin' buzz saw. He is out in a matter of minutes and I stare at the clock and watch it tick towards 5:30 AM. Rebound keeps trying to cuddle up on me and eventually I am almost hanging off the side of the bed. I throw a few elbows and roll him to the opposite side. I am annoyed out of my ever living mind.

MONDAY
I kick Rebound out at 6 AM. I haven't slept for shit and I need to get ready for work. He asks if he can see me this week. I tell him after the stunt he pulled last night that is highly unlikely. Tre starts texting me as I'm leaving for work. It's a rainy day and he's thinking we should hangout and watch movies and skip work. I tell him I don't know him like that and in my head I'm thinking, if I'm skipping work on a rainy day, it's for MNS and no one else. Tre asks if he can meet me Wednesday or Thursday night. I tell him I will get back to him.

I feel like crap and I'm going on no sleep. I decide that I need to go home and get some rest. As I'm getting ready to leave work MNS starts emailing me. We decide that he will come over during his lunch so we can talk. I haven't seen him in two weeks and I am dying too.

11:30

I'm sitting in my room when I hear MNS knock. He comes in and says hello. I walk out and laugh at him. Did you just knock? He smiles. "I know, I'm full of surprises." He grabs me into a tight hug and gives me a kiss. I stand there a few moments and just take it in. "Man, I have missed you" he whispers in my ear. I couldn't agree more.

We head to my room and things are very different than last time. Maybe I'm just paranoid or imagining it but I don't think I was. Now, this is going to sound disgusting and mushy, I realize, but it's true. Even though he was on a schedule and needed to get back to work we didn't tear each others clothes off and hop into bed. We talked for awhile, kissed for awhile, talked some more, kissed some more. It was all very chill. There wasn't any rush today. The sex was flippin' unbelievable...and different as well. It was hands down the best sex we've ever had and we've had some awesome sex. Something was changing and for the better.

Afterwards while we cuddled I asked him what he thought he was going to do as far as moving out. He says the only thing that stops him from moving in with us is that he doesn't want to crowd us or impose. I told him that Yommey and I had talked about it at length and don't see it being a problem but that it was completely up to him. He says it sure would be nice to see you everyday and wake up next to you. Really? Did you steal those thoughts from my head? Weird. He is hoping to get a vehicle this weekend so one out of two issues would be down. Once he gets that and figures out where to stay he can move out. I tell him I really hope it's before my birthday. He says he's hoping it's before his. I am squeeling with delight inside. His birthday is less than a month away. That would be freakin' phenomenal!! I bring up that he said he has been talking to his mom about leaving. He says that she's really religious (I already know this because I saw her facebook page) and that she is not an advocate of divorce but she's still his mom and wants to see him happy. She told him to heavily weigh the pros and cons and then make the best decision for him. Then this goes down and completely freaks me out:

Me: she doesn't know about me, does she?
MNS: well, yeah.
(I almost choke and I feel the blood rushing to my face in fear)
Me: What?
MNS: I didn't give her intimate details or anything but she knows about you and us.
Me: You said she's really religious.
MNS: She is but she's still my mom.
Me: She's going to hate me and think I'm a homewrecking hussy.
He laughs, probably just to annoy me.
MNS: She see's how happy you make me. So does my son. He said this weekend that I seem different and happier.
Me: And?
MNS: And that's because of you and that every day we get closer to me being free to be with you.
Me: Wow. You didn't tell him about me, did you?
MNS: No, he's 9.
Me: Thank god.
MNS: Well, what did your parents say when you told them about me?
Hmmm...now this is getting weirder.
Me: I haven't.
His smile fades.
MNS: Why? I thought you were really tight with your family?
Me: I am but this isn't my situation to fix. I'm hoping when they meet you that it will be later and they will never have to know that I was part of an affair with a married man.
MNS: They are gonna know.
Me: Yes, they will know. I'm not gonna lie to them about it. But it would be better for me if the fact we met while you were married is more of an after thought and not the main focus right now.
He thinks on this for a second and I can tell he's a little bothered.
MNS: Ok.
Me: Besides, who said you were ever gonna be lucky enough to meet my family? Because I'm going to avoid your mother like the plague!!!
I laugh. He smacks me with the pillow and rolls on top of me.
MNS: It would be so easy to just stay here with you all day.
Me: Ok, please do.
I give him my best puppy dog eyes but they never work on him.

Eventually he has to leave and I walk him out. He gives me a few more kisses and hugs and says he will talk to me soon. He walks out and I know that he totally knows I love him and maybe that drunk email wasn't such a bad thing. He knows and I think he's very happy about it. And that's good enough for me right now.