Steps

MONDAY
My nephew plays this game where he takes really quick "baby, baby, baby steps" and then two giant steps as far as his little legs will take him. It's hilarious. We did it together this weekend and it was so much fun. We got where we needed to go and laughed the entire way. I've been thinking about baby, baby, baby, big steps the last few days because of him. I can't help but liken this game to things with MNS.

The last two months MNS and I have taken some big steps, followed by baby steps and then big steps again. Before we were just running in place so any steps forward excite me. Within the last two weeks things have take some really big steps and I'm filled with excitement. Like I said before, there are three things that needed to happen for us. One was get the phone turned on. Check. Two, he needed to get a vehicle. He will have that in his possession on Thursday. Check. Last, but definitely not least, he needed to move out of their house. After spending yesterday afternoon talking about it, I realize this is much closer than I had anticipated. We spent a lot of time talking about him possibly staying with us in the very near future. This is a big decision and a lot to weigh out. Neither of us want to do anything that will jeapordize our relationship.

I'm sure to others it seems hasty but considering we've been working on this since the fall of 2007, I don't feel that it is. We have been debating the pros and cons of this big step. The pros seem to be kicking the cons ass right now. We laid out our requests, demands and what we would need and what we could not have occur if he did move in for a little while. We also decided that as of right now, this is a temporary solution. When Yommey and I get our house, he will get his own place. We are not ruling out the possibility that he might move with us but it would have to be right for him, I and Yommey and Mini before that could occur. I told him that ultimately this all comes down to him. I asked him to take a few days to think it over before he makes any decisions. I will not pretend and say that I don't care what he decides. I hope he does stay for a little while. The thought of him leaving her and being with me makes me giddy with excitement. No more being rushed and sneaking around would be divine. The idea of waking up next to him and him being mine makes my head swoon. I know he agrees completely. We will see what happens.

TUESDAY
MNS texts me bright and early saying that they offered him his promotion. We are soooo excited! Not only is this a super opportunity for him that he has worked very hard for, but he says it takes us another step closer to being together. Again, whether baby or big steps, things are moving in the right direction and I am so happy.

On a side note, it's hard to believe that four years ago today Von and I drove into this state to start our new life. Oh, how different things have turned out from my original plan. And as much as I sometimes miss my old life, I am very happy here. I'm sure I don't say that enough. I could not be more blessed than to be surrounded by the most amazing family and friends in the galaxy. Sure, Von brought me home, but now I think I was meant to be here. I need to be here. Finally, I can say, I want to be here.