I So Don't Wanna Be That Girl

TUESDAY NIGHT
Q sends me a few texts throughout the day. I don't know if I'm just so sick of him trying to contact me or still high from my nooner with MNS but I just lay it out there for him (as if I hadn't told him a million times in as many different ways already). He sends me a text that says "I miss u so much". I reply and tell him not to waste his time and that I'm seeing someone else. Ok, technically I don't know if I'd say I'm "seeing" MNS but I don't know what else to call it. It's the best word I can come up with, really. I can't call him my boyfriend since he's married and all. Anyway, Q flips a little bit about me seeing someone else and I ask him what he thought I was going to do. Did he really think I would sit around sad because he fucked me over and never move on? He doesn't need to know that MNS and I have been a long going affair. We go back and forth a bit and finally he says thanks for letting him know and that he will leave me alone. I thank him and hope that he's telling the truth. I don't want to deal with his whining anymore.

MNS is busy at work most the afternoon. I get one text telling me thank you and how awesome our little lunch time rendezvous was. I get another one his way to bowling but that's it.

WEDNESDAY
It's way too quiet today. Eerily quiet. Good news is there is no calls or texts from Q. Bad news is, I don't hear jack from MNS either. I try calling him but his phone is off. Grrr. I send him an email but he's not online. This is annoying. Well, I'm certainly not going to call his home phone. Hee hee. When I haven't heard from him before I went to bed last night I knew he would not be coming over in the morning like promised. Mason sends me a text but I'm already in bed and don't answer.

THURSDAY
I sleep in because I know MNS will not show up this morning and I'm right. I try calling him when I wake up but his phone is still off. I spend way too much time thinking about him during my commute. Why is he so flippin' flaky? It's infuriating. Normally, prior to meeting him, this kind of behavior would be the norm and I wouldn't spend two seconds analyzing it. BUT since we have took things to a new level he has been very informative, attentive and actually communicating. I pray we are not going back to the old ways. Now that we've crossed that line, sporadic would not be enough for me. Unfortunately, there isn't much I can do about it. MNS will contact me when MNS wants to contact me. I hate being the girl that is staring at her phone and wondering if she did something wrong and why the hell he's not blowing it up. I can't be that girl.

Luckily it doesn't take too long. When I get to work I get a text from him that he misplaced his phone but everything is good. We chat about work a little bit and the fact that he's annoyed he had to go in at 6:15 this morning and it's freezing out. They're really busy today but he will text me when he can. Good enough. Hopefully that means some point today and not next week but we will just wait and see.