Knock, Knock. Who's There? Not The One I Want

FRIDAY
I didn't hear jack from MNS on Thursday and his phone is still off. I'm left wondering if my little tiff with his buddy was more detrimental than I originally feared. Only time will tell I guess. I'm sure he will pop up sooner or later. Well, at least I hope.

I go in to clear out my online dating box. It's ridiculously disappointing. There are a couple messages from guys I used to talk to but told to leave me alone. Why do men always think if they wait a few months your mind will change? It hasn't and it won't. Stop trying to contact me. The only one that peaks my interest is a generic message from Lost. The hottie from the Santa Pub Crawl. Hmmm...what to do, what to do?

I fear that I am failing the Apprentice. I realize I am not setting a very good example with my affair but my advice to her is out of love and trying to stop her self-destructive behavior. She claims to care and that she has to start loving herself but she makes piss poor decisions and doesn't think of any of the consequences of her actions. CW is not even pretending that he is going to leave his wife for her. Worse, I don't think she'd want him as bad if he was readily available to her. It just makes me sick to my stomach that she can look at his wife every day at work and play nice and like she's her best buddy at the office when she's fucking CW in the hotel bathroom down the lane during their afternoon breaks. Obviously, I have taught her nothing. She keeps claiming to have these epiphany's and life changing thoughts and moments but the minute the opportunity arises she is running off to destroy herself, her reputation and her self respect with CW. I'm out of ideas.

While I'm at work my IM starts flashing. I look and am shocked to see that it's Pella. What in the hell does he want? We have barely spoken since our date in December. He chit chats for awhile and says I'm being kind of cold. Well, what do you want me to be? I don't owe you shit. He says he met a girl in town and their dating and it's going well. I tell him I'm glad to hear it. He asks how my love life is going. I tell him I meet plenty of guys but none hold my interest. This is true, excluding MNS, and that situation is none of his business. He teases me that he set the bar too high for any potential suitors. "Oh yeah," I say. "a great date, hit and quit and disappear. How could anyone ever live up to that, ass?" He says he's sorry and I assure him it doesn't matter. It's hard to explain to a guy that it wasn't that you missed them coming around or anything of that sort but it was more of a ding to your pride. They wouldn't understand. Let him think he hurt poor, niave and innocent me. Hee hee. Stupid fools.

I tell Pella I need to get back to work. My IM dings again and this time it is finally MNS. He says he is so happy to finally be done with class so that he can talk to me again. He says he misses me and wonders if I'm going home this weekend or not. I tell him I am staying and ask if I will see him. He says he's hoping so. He has to get back to work but he will talk to me soon. I'm happy to hear from him but still wish it could've been more than a four minute conversation. He swears he will have minutes on his phone soon, as he has been promising all week.

FRIDAY NIGHT
Kong texts me and ends up coming over to hang out with Yommey and I. I am hoping the entire time that MNS will text me that he escaped and is going to come hang as well, but he does not. Kong stays for a few hours, we have some drinks and shoot the shit. I'm not sure what he's thinking this is. Friends or still potentially more. I don't give him a clue either way. I just have fun. If he tries to bust a move I would have to tell him I'm in like with another but for now, I have no problem being Kong's friend and keeping him in my pocket in case MSN and I come to a screeching halt any time soon. Kong is a great guy and a lot of fun and he's a good friend to have on my side. One can never have too many hot, buff friends. While we're sitting outside BigBoi texts me. I don't bother to respond. He's a flippin' idiot and I don't want or need him in my pocket.

SATURDAY
Spend the day with the family. It's wonderful to see them, as always. MNS emails me when I'm on my way to my brothers house. He asks when my family is arriving and tells me not to worry, that we will work something out to see each other this weekend. I tell him if he can get away I will try to break away for a little tryst as well.

A few texts from Kong. He's wondering if I want to do something. I tell him I'm still busy with the family and I'll catch up with him later in the week. He seems fine with that. Q sends me a text which I ignore. I wish I could strangle him through the phone. Vanilla sends me a message on facebook. A few texts with Mob as well.